A 'self support' Tool and 'statement' of 'who I will myself to be'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only think about programming the whole time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly look for new information to add to my collection of information.

I forgve myself that have accepted and allowed myself to fear to miss a skill if I do not review and/or study every piece of information available on a specific subject.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to miss information.

I forgive myself that I have accetped and allowed myself to define myself according to and as information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an avid and vivid programmer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I have to know everything about every subject, from Software programming to Image and Videp Processing to Web Design because I want to be special.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to out of the desire to be seen and labeld as special – be on the quest to learn everything, from software programming, to image and video processing to web design.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am special if I have skills in all areas from software programming to image and video processing to web design.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire and want to acquire a skill before someone else acquires it so that I can get all the compliments and “wows” from people before someone else gets it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compete wth people in all areas of life.

I forgive myself that I have not aaccepted and allowed myself to realize that competing with everyone and all things the whole time is not fun and really stressful.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that compettion creates jealousy which has the final potention to turn into abuse of another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exst in competition with people in all areas of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be seen as special by people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be ”the’ man’.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to grudge other people to be good at something and get compliments from others.

i forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to grudge other people to be good at somethng, get compliments and attention because of being greedy with attention and wanting it all for me alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be greedy with attention – wanting and desiring to get the full attention from all people the whole time, getting angry, frustrated and jealous if someone gets more then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn angry, frustrated and jealous if someone gets more attenton then me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in the harmful and abusive mode of / as jealousy.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am commiting a crime against life itself when I grudge people to get attention from others and be good / better at things then me because I am within that point actually wishing for the other person to be harmed / degraded / removed in a way so that I can take their place.

Within that I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to allow jealous thoughts to exist within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think jealous and abusive thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop thinking jealous and abusive thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thnk and believe that i cannot stop thinking jealous and abusive thoughts instead of realzing that have aaccepted and allowed the very creation and storage of these thoughts throughout time – up to know – and therefor can in fact stop them because they exist IN ME after all, so therefor I got ‘full direction’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I sound silly when I state forgiveness on thinking itself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be off-topic – to get off the track on the points of required self-forgiveness / self-correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted nd allowed myself to base my whole day-cycle on programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste the whole day on programming instead of applying myself within process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel special because of being able to program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel special because of understanding computers and their underlying principles quite well because I thnk and believe that only few special beings are able to comprehend these apparently ‘complex’ topics / subjects.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the self-honest common-sense point that if I can comprehend computers, their underlying principles and also software-development / programming principles – then everyone can also do so and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am therefor not special for understanding these points / subjects / topics because I have learned / come to comprehend these only through extensive research, thorough cross-referencing of the information between multiple ‘professional’ information sources and a lengthy time of ‘trial and errors’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a feeling of ‘specialness’ and ‘happiness’ based on the feeling, thought and self-definition of ‘being special’.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I really do not need to know every little bit of information about every single topic.

Within that I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stick to the points that are essential and required at the moment only.

I forgve myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to enjoy programming and learning /acquiring new skills instead of tunring it into a compettion.

I do no longer accept and allow myself to turn ‘learning something’ into a competition. I understand that competition eventually leads to abuse and I do not accept and allow myself to abuse life in any of its forms.

I do no longer accept and allow myself to be on the quest of ultimate knowledge. I understand that knowledge alone is useless and that Ii do really not need / require to acquire skill in really all aspects.

I do not longer accept and allow myself to compete with other people. I understand that competition based on a point of desire to be ‘more then’ which in itself is based on a point of ‘lack’ of self-acceptance. I accept myself and I realize / understand I do not have to be the ‘best’.

I do no longer accept and allow myself to grudge other people / beings for getting more attention or doing things better then me or whatever else as I understand that this in itself is a crime against life and implies abuse / ‘death’ of another in order to ‘take their place’.

I do no longer accept and allow myself to define myself based on programming an / or based on my skills and knowledge as I understand that everyone can acquire the same skills another acquires through research, self-will and self-application.

I do no longer accept and allow myself to define, see and think of myself as being special because of my ACQUIRED understanding of computers and their underlying principles and inner workings because I understand that these are indeed ‘ACQUIRED skills’ – which implies that EVERYONE can ACQUIRE them if self-willed to.

I do not accept and allow myself to abuse myself or another through the mind, through thinking abusve of others through for example competition and jealousy. I understand that I have to stop these things as myself and so I do here as breath.

I understand that I am NOT special because of tha skill to program.

I understand that I am NOT special because of certain knowledge or understanding.

I understand that such things as ‘specialness’ and / or ‘being special’ do NOT exist as an ACTUAL PHYSICAL FACT but just as the creation of the individual within the desire to be more then who the individual is based on the ‘lack’ of self-acceptance.

I understand that I am as one as equal as all life in all it’s forms and existences.

I understand that I am equal and one in potential as all other life in all it’s forms and existences.

I understand that I have to self-will myself to be an equal as life and that that point will not manifest on it’s own but only through MY as each one elses ‘hand’ / self-application and self-willed ‘walk’ to the point of manifestation of the re-birthing process of self as life and the manifestation of universal equality.

I understand that I am self-willed life.

i understand that I am an self-willed equal.

I understand that I am breath.

I understand that ‘I am you’ and ‘you are me’.

I understand that ‘we are one and the same’ in essence as life.

I understand that I have deceide about my destiny.

I understand that I am HERE.

I am here.